Thanksgiving & Change

Here we are on the Saturday after Thanksgiving. My sons football team did not make the state finals, so no trip over the Thanksgiving weekend. Maybe next year!! Looks out, here comes basketball as the sports change.
This is my first Thanksgiving not spent with my family. It is not "bad" necessarily, although there are many things I miss. Change is hard, no doubt.
I start a new career next week and there are lots of scary things that go with that change. I am confident in my abilities, but so many people are counting on me. There are still so many things I want to do in my life and so for those around me. Will I be able to accomplish any of it? Yet another change to deal with.
Growing up I was all about control. I had the "illusion" that I could control it all. Life, family, career whatever. When did I finally realize it was not possible? Have I really?
Oh well, I am thankful. Thankful for what I have had and for what I have. Thankful for good friends and great family. Most of all I guess I am thankful that I am am still in the game.
Happy Thanksgiving...I'm going for a turkey sandwich!

Welcome - A Strange New World

Hello to the great wide blogosphere!! Here I sit a 44 year old divorced father of two with a multitude of decisions to make and more than several people counting on me making the right ones. Many things in my life are beyond my control. That fact, in itself, is a hard life lesson to learn. I still have a chance to influence others. Why do I STILL feel the need to do so? Other lives I have touched are on their own inevitable journey. Hopefully I have started them down a good path. Can I still do good? Can I still make a difference? Does any of this really matter?

Having many more pressing things to accomplish, what do I do, I create a blog.

As I type this initial entry, I have grand ideas of documenting the important and not so important things in my life - past, present and future.

• Who will read it?
• Who cares what I have to say?
• Why am I doing it?
• Can I help another?

Life is a process, no matter how you break it down. Control is a myth and "plans" are tentative at best. Some days I am at peace. Others, I fight to stay out of the very dark and very deep hole that has become a constant in my life. I guess we all face similar struggles, but some seem to handle it better than others.

I have some very great things in my life and much to be thankful for. That list is probably far more extensive than the list of things I regret. Assuming that is true, why do we focus our energies anywhere other than on the "good stuff". That is surely one of lifes "eternal" questions.

We're going to cover some random "stuff" here for sure. Life, kids, motorcycles, BBQ and who knows what else. Stay tuned and feel free to comment at will or ask me questions. What do I want out of this? Right now, I honestly do not know. I guess if I had that answer, I wouldn't be here now would I?

With that said, whoever is out there "Hang on tight and here we go!"